Kendall Nut Nut
Kendall Nut Christmas 2012
My best friend and service dog went to heaven May 18th 2013. She was the world to me and it hurt so much to let her go. She was 13 and her body just could not let her do what she wanted to anymore. Her heart wanted to do what her body could no longer handle.
I can't sleep, I miss her so much and I am in so much pain. She made the last 9 years of my life wonderful and I wish she was still here.
She no longer rides in the car with me, she no longer goes to the Dr's with me or walks around the stores with me. I feel so empty inside. I loved her sticking her snout in my face every morning to wake me up. Her sweet kisses, the love she had for me. I miss her.
She helped to train Carlie (my other service dog) over the last year. We got Carlie so that Kendall could live out her years in retirement, just being a dog and getting many rewards for a job well done. I had no clue that 10 month's after bringing Carlie home that Kendall would need to go to heaven. She taught Carlie what to do and how things are done, she turned the reigns over to Carlie and told me she was tired.
I tried med after med to keep her pain free and in the end she just needed to sleep. I guess she knew I was in good hands, so she was not worried to go to sleep. I'm now in pain and I want her back, to live out her years and enjoy her older years.
She kept going for me, because she knew I needed her and my heart could not be without her. When I saw she refused to stop working despite the pain she was in, I knew I had to make the call to let my baby go.
She passed away her head in my hands with many tears. I held her in my arms in the back seat and kissed her nose on the ride home and told her I loved her. We laid her to rest in a favorite spot in the yard.
Keep God company Kendall Nut and greet me with your sweet smile when I enter Heaven. I love you baby. Mama misses you. Have a sweet sleep. You were one in a million and you were mine.