I feel so bad for you cuz I can relate my furgirl does the same thing but thank god she has not got to the point of having to take her to the vet,What happens if you dont go through with the surgery? A couple of months ago I had make a desicion of letting go or getting in dept I made the desicion of life and dept ,Start a fundraiser for her at funds.org There is a lot of good people out there that are willing to help donate,I pray for your furbaby and if there is anyway you can keep me posted let me know what happens I leave you with lots of prayers lala and her 3 furgirls olibell14@yahoo.com